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TinyCopy: a non-judgemental community for new writers.

she laughed in my face.

I watched as spittle flew from her wrinkled lips and plopped onto my essay paper.

She was my English teacher. I was 17.

Her cheap wrist bangles jingled as she wiped her tiny mouth.

she scoffed.

My cheeks turned bright red. I knew I was about to become staff room gossip.

I said, nervously tapping my pen on my hand.

I told her through a forced a smile.

It was a big fat lie.

I had no idea how to write a f***ing essay. I had no idea how to write properly, period. And I didn’t try again until I was in my mid-late 20s. …


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Lessons from Dr Diane Poole Heller.

Relationships aren’t meant to give you emotional whiplash. One minute the relationship is filled with affection and love, the next you’re left wondering why they’re ignoring you (or vice versa!)

Being with someone shouldn’t feel like you’re on a rollercoaster. But we think it is if that’s what we’re used to. Stability and predictability can feel boring when you have insecure attachment.

In the words of Dr Diane Poole Heller,

Here’s a quick post with 2 things, from Dr Heller, you can start working on to enhance your secure attachment skills in your relationships. …


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If you’re struggling with anxious and avoidant attachment.

Secure attachment can feel like the highest bar in a high-jump competition. It can feel like we’ll always struggle to find our dream partner or even stay in a relationship (without feeling anxious or avoidant.)

I felt the same too.

I thought a normal relationship was meant to keep me guessing and on my toes. I constantly felt on edge and afraid of connecting with others. Until I began learning how to feel secure in my late 20s.

As Dr Diane Poole Heller wrote,

Here are 4 ways to boost your secure attachment skills in your relationships. …


The difference between secure and insecure.

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“Why do I need to be secure? It feels too hard to change.” A lot of people have said this to me. I write a lot about relationships, and yes, secure attachment can feel like it’s an unattainable goal.

But it’s how we should be operating.

We aren’t meant to live our lives in a fearful state or feel stuck in survival mode. Yet this is how many people with insecure attachment are functioning in their day to day life.

I know, because this was me.

I used to be terrified of being close to people because I didn’t feel like relationships were safe. …


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My experience using the ‘basic’ 32GB $499 iPad 8.

“Nah, I don’t want that iPad,” I told my girlfriend as we walked through the Apple store.

As tempting as the new iPad Air was, the price tag threw me off a little.

Especially when you start throwing accessories in, like the Apple pencil 2, a screen protector and keyboard, it totals to about $1,400. You can buy a new Macbook Air with that amount.

So I got the 32GB iPad 8. It was more affordable at $499 ($329USD). I just wanted to do some light drawing on Procreate and use Canva.

I’ve had this bad boy for a month now, and here’s my verdict. …


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Lessons from Dr. Diane Poole Heller on attachment

By reflecting on our earliest attachment (the one with our parents) and how it was established and brought into our adult relationships subconsciously — we can start learning secure attachment skills.

Secure attachment helps us connect with others, and ourselves, in a richer, deeper way. Insecure attachment can make relationships with others feel unsafe or scary.

Unhealthy relationship patterns are often subconsciously repeated

Because our attachment wounds slip into our subconscious mind, some of us spend years weaving in and out of the same unhealthy relationships.

If you’re like I used to be, maybe you gravitate towards emotionally unavailable partners. …


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New writers, this is for you.

“I’ve always known I wanted to be a writer.”

A common story.

Some people just flew out of their mother’s womb and knew it from day one.

Honestly?

My writing used to be so bad; my English teacher laughed at me.

I was 17 at the time. I almost failed the class, and I felt too stupid to write again.

Maybe you’ve driven a similar racecar. Felt like you weren’t smart enough. Not ‘academic’ enough.

When bad experiences plant a seed of doubt into your mind, it’s hard to believe you can ever become a good writer.

But you can.

  • I was 25 when I went to college and learned how to (finally) write an essay. …


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The brain science behind your attachment issues

As kids, we soak up the world around us, and we look at our parents or caregivers to guide us.

In the first 12–24 months, a lot of what we see and experience slips right into our subconscious memory.

If you're parents/caregivers were:

  • Attentive (quality attention)
  • Protective
  • Loving
  • Safe to be around
  • And consistently met your needs

Then your brain can focus on connecting with others, rather than being on high-alert for perceived threats.

You know it’s safe to trust people, and you expect relationships to be positive and loving. …


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Easy tweaks to help improve your writing

Ugh. So embarrassing.

“1 huge lesson my Jack Russell, Andy, taught me as a kid. 🐶

This may or may not have been one of my first posts on Medium

You see, when we first board Medium’s ship, a lot of us start by writing about ourselves. We’re all guilty of it. But it’s totes fine, it’s therapeutic and stuff.

Cool.

But if your blog posts are about you (and what you ate for brunch), readers will probably hit [X] and bail. Unless you’re a celebrity.

Humans love hearing about themselves and reading about things that’ll give them value. (Sadly, my dog story didn’t give people value.) …


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And how to start giving them a chance

“Predictable? That sounds SO boring!” said my client.

We were talking about healthy relationships and filling in colouring-in pages. I was a mental health worker at the time.

“Why does it sound boring?” I asked her, picking up a purple pencil.

“Relationships are meant to be fun and exciting,” she said, colouring in her mandala with a yellow pencil, “not .”

When we have an insecure attachment style, we might believe relationships are meant to feel uncertain or filled with drama.

They’re not.

After 6 years of weaving in and out of rollercoaster relationships, I met my current partner. We’ve been together for almost 3 years now, and she modelled to me what a healthy relationship is meant to be like. …

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